So -- it took Gregg about 5 minutes to figure out what's wrong today, why I've been short, snappy and downright unpleasant. Deep breath, here it is:
Another girl in the office is preg and she's due around Christmas. Now, I am NOT one of those infertile girls who gets angry and mad when someone else is pregnant. Green is just not my color. I am overjoyed for them, and if a close friend, thrilled there will be yet another baby in my life.
That being said, we started this process last October. At that time, there had been no babies in my firm for over 4 years. So when people learned we were going to adopt, it was "Finally! a baby in the office!" Then, boom! three girls announced they were pregnant. THREE. They had their babies back-to-back-to-back this Spring. They are gorgeous, healthy, strong boys, every one.
So in late Spring, I thought, "okay, I'll be next." And then, boom! Another girl announced she was pregnant and due around Thanksgiving. I thought, "are you freakin' kidding me??" But was happy for her. So I'm okay about it, thinking, "okay, but no one else is preg so I am definitely next!"
Then yesterday, BAM! outta left field. Another girl is pregnant, due around Christmas!
Now, let's be real for a moment here. There is little chance our dossier will be out by Christmas (see prior post regarding our home study), and NO CHANCE we will have a referral by then. Please know I wish this girl only the best. Seriously. She has been married 7 or 8 years, and has deferred having a baby to instead care for her adult brother who is developmentally delayed (now in a group home), and father who has end-stage Alzheimers. She is a really sweet and genuine girl with boatloads of moxy -- a girl after my own heart. If ANYONE deserves to be pregnant right now, it is her.
But, to recap: five girls in the office having babies in the same span of time we have been in the process of adoption and we don't have our freakin' home study yet. I mean, gimme a break! Seriously! Did I do something really bad and piss off the entire universe??
I'm going to be fine. I'm going to open my bottle of Pinot Noir (Red Bicycle from France -- hello Target!), and sit down on the couch, and eat the yummy in my tummy veggie fried rice my husband is making upstairs right now. But GEEEEEEEEZ I could really use a break here.
We need to get our home study. We need referrals to start again. We need some hope in this process.
The Weekly Ramble – August 29, 2025
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3 comments:
I totally understand that feeling! (((Hugs)))
Megan - I just read your blog page and I think you are just sooo funny! Your style of writing is just great. I am soo sorry about your home study - are you leaving the lady messages EVERY DAY? I had to call ours a lot, too, but... she did get it done -- I'll say a prayer! Good luck with the pregnant ladies in your office - how disheartening, I know, BUT.. yours will happen!!! Have faith!
I know just how you feel. When we announced we were adopting (Christmas 2006)@ our Church we were so excited and were told it would take a year. We found out shortly there after that another couple were getting their paperwork together to adopt as well(they went domestic). They received their little angel about a week before Christmas. I sat in Christmas eve service and they walked in with their new baby. I was so overjoyed for them and yet so sad for us. Shortly thereafter we were told that 2 of our family members were pregnant! I did have a small pity party and then I prayed about it and moved forward. God has a plan and only in His time will we know it! I will pray for peace for you!
Tina
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